The Order

I for one would die to see
The bodies of men splatter to earth
Then slowly see them wither
While they follow my lead into obscurity
It is for those who seek themselves
Who dare to think beyond their heart
For the heart is a useless tool
When it comes to find your inner-most

Beaten and sprawled out; one intense vision
As thoughts of murder awaken your eyes
To calm your imagery of the forsaken 'good'
Through this fury only to find out
You've been staring too long at blank walls

And though my body regrets
I listen to a foul spirit
As it guides my way
And distant (me) from human morals
I will find more attraction,
More desires, more of everything
That will be ignored by my twisted views of self-reality

Alas I can't give in to these compulsions
For when I hold back, I shall commense more
And intensify all outings
And that is what's to be my truth

As written
As bespeak: (witnessed)

The depression of life is on my side
It is my home and wouldn't think of having it any other way
For this is the way to give myself eternally
And dare you to call me a liar...
Filthy forgotten beings!
I will drink thine blood
As the alcohol that fuels me!

Written Friday the 13th -12-2002

Burned and Raped

Now you see why it's time to rise above!
Without shame rejecting love
Wthout pain trying to escape
Without, your body is raped!
Stand aside and feel convicted
And face a world without perspective
It's time to prove who I am...
It's time to prove I'm a man of nothing!

Burn! Rape! Burn! Rape!
A time to fade, a time to pay
A time to sail away

What's the catch for finding yourself?
Trying to tell, don't need any help!
Self progression of the mind
Needing so little to get by

But what I need from you is to suck off...
Cause you wouldn't fuck off!
You had your time and now it's gone
Unconcious to ignore what is wrong or done

Your a has-been, a fake!
Little time now to erase
How it's build is not the way...
I give respect to the burned and raped

Written 06-08-1999

No Fear

When day is not what I feel
But more a conflict, an agony
I turn and cast away
To feel myself wake at sundown
The wind is what's cold
The sky as dank as I'm old
Your face does not shine
I've related myself to others

As you wish to tell me
As I wish to tell you
But the fire has grown hatefull
Therefore I can't restore to bliss

And you will have to say
And you will have to remember
And now days have grown darker
As I'm finally at my stage

My days of reckoning and rememberance
All as shallow, as is stone

As I learned I told you
As you burn, you'll see
That the fire has grown hatefull
Therefore I won't return to bliss

No fear, no grasp
Nothing, but self-infliction

Written 13-07-2002

This Love

This love makes me a sending
This love makes me a mending
This love may be never ending
In this love, there is no use to be pretending

Whispers in the wind
Voices from the shadows
Words that dare to sing
And keep death at the gallows

Written 15-03-2006

Anal Benevolence

Crossing the path of righteous belief
Shaking fists at your cowering creed
You deny, with a straight lie
You force the lie and spread it as law

Clutching your symbols
Known as reminders
If only you'd waken
From this morbid nightmare

Divide, within a straight line
You enforce the line
And uphold it as the law

Written 05-03-2008

Merciless Fate

Believe what your masters tell you
Divise the ethics, the moral
Your death will be called upon

Your blank stare tell a fate worse than death
Merciless

My blood has turned to ash
Enabled me
The current will to nothing
Merciless

Imprisoned by life
To become the sceptic

Written 22-04-2009

Desensitize

See it as it's going
Coming around again
Please play the game
Stay in the game
Be what you're told
So divine the excess
So pleasurable indeed!
Be the slave
Pave the way
Drone until forever!

Don't make a sound

Are you going to be everything you want?
Does it pay, keep you safe?
Maybe for today?
Buy into the worst
Demoralize for now
Drink a bit
Fuck a bit
Don't you dare think!
Desensitize right now!

Wriitten 28-02-2008